Come with me//stay the night.

Of course I want to talk to you.
Yes, I do want to make the three hour road trip to come see you.

But babe, that's just going to make me keep falling in love with you.
And that wouldn't be good for either of us.
Every time I talk to you, I just want to be with you.

But decisions were made, I got owned.
I lost my own game.
And now, I don't want to be the it girl anymore.
I don't want to be the one everyone wants.
I want to be nobody, so I could easily chose and chose to be yours.

Instead, for some reason, I'm waiting on something that'll never come, or at the very least, never change. Guess what??? I haven't spoken to him since he was down here. Yeah, so what? We were the couple that was notorious for going months without speaking to each other. In retrospect, I think that probably said a lot about the relationship. And now, we're doing it again. We say love, and maybe we mean it. We say we'll wait for each other, and this is what happens. We end up not speaking until we're together, and things happen with other people, and it just ruins what could have been.

I don't like being wrong, and even more, I don't like admitting when I've made mistakes.
So this is gonna be big. I think I made the wrong choice here.

It's not that I don't love Joe, I know I do. But that's just it. I know I do, but when distance kills everything, and we don't talk and we don't see each other, it's just something I know, not feel.

Come with me, stay the night
You say the words, but boy it don't feel right
What do you expect me to say?
You take my hand, you say you've changed
But boy, you know you're begging don't fool me

I was young, and in love
I gave you everything but it wasn't enough

...it's just a little too late.

Maybe it IS too little too late.
I don't want it to be, but come on, it's been over two years.
I don't know what to expect anymore. I don't know if I should expect anything anymore.

In other news, my grandmom fell off a treadmill this afternoon.
Despite the fact that she hurt herself enough to need medical attention,
I think that's really fucking funny.